sorry dear,,

Bismillah..
Little bit sad tonight,not in mood.My heart feels pains,make me hard to breath. Tomorrow is Fiqh Lughah class-3 hours non-stop. Lying on mattress,listening to a soft and sad melody,make me sadder.I cant help my tears from falling down....really hurt inside.Wanna shout! To whom can I share my feeling,sadness?  I pray to Allah to shower me wth His bless,gv me patient.In Quran, Fasobrun Jameel. I'll try...

I hope I can tell the person who had hurt me this much tonite,,,face to face.But,do I hv any courage? Am I coward? Yes,,,(I think) I dont want to create more problems, enough. I'm just a plain white paper.You can sketch everthing u want on me,u can tear me into pieces,throw me ,kick me.But,cn u tell me how purest is me?I dun think so!

I'll keep smiling and put all the blames on me.Keep patience even after everything annoying things u did to me,,,because u are my friend.I once cried bcause of u,did u know tht? All u know is keep asking me ,pushing me,bossing me around. You always see what you want.Do u ever care about me??!!

I really hope I can gt away from u.Gettin stuck wth u,,lots of pros and contras. Then,I calm myself,,telling me that everyone makes mistakes. Our Prophet s.a.w said that too. I cant wish u to act the way I want.But at least consider others feelings,everybody surounding u.

I'll keep praying to Allah,to show u the truth. I guess I'm the only one who can withstand  ur behaviour. When others talking bad about u,I hope I can shut their mouths.I feel hurt,pity,,because I'm you friend but I cant tell you what to do and  donts. I dun hv any guts.

My friend,,everyone makes mistakes.U r a good talker,student.But dun make other feels bad about u bcause of ur behaviour.

Friend,patient has limit.Dun walk across it or we are over. Allah,shower me wth Sabr.
Ya Allah,plese protect us from any bad things.